While believing God for our children, I often thought that I deserved this, after all I was a reformed sinner, and God knows maybe my past is finally catching up with me.
Let me tell you this; Jesus died for sinners and not for righteous Christians. He died for you and I. He paid the price so we don’t have to. Quit being hard on yourself and start loving you, there is nothing you and I can do to stop God from loving or blessing us. Even when we are faithless, He cannot deny himself, He is faithful.
On the issues of past mistakes, deal with it and let it be settled once and forever. It is under the blood, as far as the east is from the west. That is how far God never remember our sinful past. Learn to forgive yourself, it is so easy for us to forgive others but we struggle in forgiving ourselves. Don’t continue to live under condemnation, chose to live under the grace that is available to you today.
Before we conceived, there were days that all I did was cried, I couldn’t even pray. I would start with prayer and just ended up slobbering in tears. I would do all my crying in Adey’s absence and put a brave face on upon his return home.
My relationship with God grew; it started off with me just seeking his hands for what I can get. It developed into me seeking his face; it became about intimacy and a deeper walk with Him.
I will never forget the very night that everything changed for me. I had enough of it all, the sadness, the crying, and the begging. From all the pain and shame that I had felt and endured,
I cried out to God. Saying, “Give me a child, don’t give me a child; I am going to serve you all the days of my life!
We conceived 10 months after we got married, those 10 months were not fun. It might have been 10 yrs! I didn’t experience all the nausea and morning sickness most women do. My pregnancy was beautiful and it wasn’t anything like I had imagined. Seriously I was prepared for the worst but it never happened. Pregnancy agreed with me so well, I was ready to do it all over again as soon as the baby was out.
When our first child was 18 months we found out that we were to be parents again! This was not accidental, it was intentional. We have been ever so busy trying to conceived again. Exciting right? Yeah it was all too much for my little mind to take; God loves me, He does really love me. Oh and Adey too, lol!
While waiting to conceive our second child I panicked again, why wasn’t I getting pregnant again and I became concerned plus worried. Can you believe my effrontery? That is how we human beings are. We are no different from the children of Israel after seeing signs, wonders and miracles that God did for them. Still they doubted and questioned God.
Thank God for a praying husband who reminded me again that God promised us children not a child based on the scripture we stood on (Psalm 127:3) Thank God for a wise sister who reminded me that with each battle you encounter you will have to use a different weapon; you can’t fight every battle the same way. Pray and ask God which key will unlock your blessings. He will show you which one to use.
We are now the humble parents of 2 beautiful children, life is not the same since they arrived. We won’t change it for anything. We had to walk the faith-walk for our children.
We had to see our children with the eyes of faith before they were conceived. We took steps in the natural as if our children were already here in anticipation of their arrival.
God is a God of order, put your home in order now. Put your marriage and finances in order before the arrival of the children. Have one vision for your family and walk in unity as a couple. This will not be the last battle you are going to fight together; get it right now.
Remember it is not about the destination but much more about the lessons you will learn on the way to your destination. What is God teaching you in this season? The earlier you learn it the quicker you will be at your destination.
Watch the words of your mouth. You can do everything right but destroy it all with the words that you are confessing over yourself. Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof (Proverbs 18:21). Speak your future and not your past or problems, if you have nothing better to say then say nothing. Don’t be quick to reply everyone that offend you or were insensitive toward you.
Remember you might be over-sensitive yourself while going thru this journey. So be considerate towards others especially if they speak out of ignorant during this period.
All that you are going through and experiencing right now will help you to be a more humble and better mother. Your appreciation for life and the things of God will never be the same. You will be more considerate towards other women that will walk in your shoes.
I live everyday grateful for what the Lord has done for us. I certainly don’t deserve His goodness, mercy and favor. He is merciful and I am forever grateful to Him for the rest of my life.
I know that if He can do it for us, He can absolutely without a doubt in my mind do it for you. Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful (Hebrews 10:23)
My Prayer for You
God will be the glory and lifter of your head. You will be called by a new name, Mom. You will no longer be forsaken, for the Lord has called you like a woman forsaken and grieve in spirit. Like a youthful wife when you were refused.
Do not fear, you will not be ashamed or disgraced, for you will not be put to shame. For you will forget the shame of your youth.
God will prepare a table before you in the presence of your enemies; He will anoint your head with oil. The same people who rejoice over your predicament will come and see what the Lord has done.
Be encouraged, what is impossible with man, IS POSSIBLE WITH GOD.
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